From Eliyahu
There is something tragic and strangely common in human life: people can
come right to the edge of something good, something needed, something
prepared for them - and then step back.
They get close enough to see it clearly. Close enough to know it is real.
Close enough to taste the fruit of it, to sense what could be, to feel the
nearness of change. And yet, instead of entering in, they retreat. Sometimes
the retreat looks reasonable. Sometimes it is dressed up as caution,
prudence, waiting for a better time, or needing just one more sign. But
underneath all of that, very often, is fear. And fear, if left in charge,
quickly turns into unbelief.
This is one of the great lessons of Israel standing at the edge of the
Promised Land.
YHWH had not only called them out of Egypt, but had carried them, taught
them, ordered them, and brought them all the way to the threshold of what He
had promised. They were not stepping into a vague dream they had imagined
for themselves. They were stepping toward a future He Himself had prepared
and spoken. The land was real. The promise was real. The call was real. Even
the spies testified, at least in part, that it was a good land.
And yet they did not enter in.
Why?
Because between them and the promise stood obstacles large enough to awaken
fear. Giants. Fortified cities. A battle they did not feel equal to. The
goodness of the land was undeniable, but so were the challenges. And when
their eyes fixed more on the challenge than on the God who had brought them
there, their hearts melted. In the end, it was not merely fear of giants
that kept them out. It was unbelief.
That same pattern shows up everywhere in human life.
People reach the edge of healing, and step back because the process looks
too painful. People come to the point of reconciliation, and step back
because vulnerability feels too dangerous. People get near a calling, a
responsibility, a new work, a new season, a needed act of courage, and step
back because success itself feels frightening, or because failure seems
unbearable, or because entering in will require becoming someone better than
they have yet dared to be.
Many people do not fail because there was no open door. They fail because
when the open door appeared, it demanded trust, courage, and movement. It
required them to leave the wilderness they knew for a promise they could not
control.
That is a hard transition for fallen human beings.
The wilderness may be harsh, but it is familiar. The promise may be good,
but it is unknown. In the wilderness, at least a person knows the patterns
of survival. In the promise, there are new demands, new battles, and new
levels of responsibility. Strangely enough, people will often choose a
future they dislike over a future they cannot control. They will remain in a
place of barrenness because barrenness feels more predictable than risk.
This happens with all kinds of people, believer and unbeliever alike.
Some step back because they fear pain. Some because they fear
responsibility. Some because they fear visibility. Some because they fear
opposition. Some because they secretly fear that if they really enter in,
their excuses will die, and they will have to live differently. For others,
stepping back is tied to old wounds. They have been disappointed before,
betrayed before, embarrassed before, shattered before, and now when
something good stands before them, their heart whispers, “Do not go too far.
Do not hope too much. Do not trust again.”
And so they step back.
Many never call it unbelief. They call it realism.
But realism can sometimes be fear that has learned to speak intelligently.
That is one reason this pattern is so common. Fear is persuasive. It can
gather evidence. It can point to the walls, measure the giants, and count
the risks. It can make retreat sound mature. The ten spies did not come back
saying there was no land. They came back saying the obstacles were too
great. That is how fear works. It does not always deny the goodness of what
YHWH has set before us. It simply argues that obedience is impractical.
And once that argument is accepted, retreat begins to feel justified.
For believers, this is especially painful, because we are not merely talking
about human opportunity. We are talking about the tragic possibility of
stepping back from something YHWH Himself is doing, and has called us to do.
It is one thing for an unbeliever to shrink from a hard road because he has
no covenant confidence in YHWH. It is another thing when believers, who have
seen His faithfulness, who have known His leading, and who have testimonies
behind them, still come to the edge of obedience and step back into
unbelief.
Yet it happens all the time.